You know the beginning of love..the thing poets write about..books and books are penned about. The giddy feeling..the endless smiles..the pining for each other..the longing..the looking forward to a lifetime together..the dreaming endless dreams.
I sometimes wonder what happened to all of that? Where did all of it go? When did we get so busy with work and deadlines..cooking and cleaning..child and diapers, that we forgot all about love? When did the need to constantly be with each other become not part of the deal?
Then something like what happened the past few weeks happens. Work totally, completely takes over. Time for even thoughts gets left behind. You barely lift your head up to get the kinks out. Suddenly you find the other person in your life taking over, picking up the slack. The house might be littered with toys (owing to the little hurricane), but the said hurricane is always bathed and dressed up in clean clothes. The dishes might not get done regularly, but every time you need food it is given to you sitting down in a clean plate. You might not sleep on the same schedule, but someone gets up at 4:00 in the morning to not find you next to him..comes looking for you..and give you a blasting for not having had a shut-eye in the past 20 hours and drags you to get some sleep. And while your tired mind is trying to shut all its processing, a hand reaches out in the dark and gives your hand a squeeze.
With all of this a realization comes, the love is there. Just morphed into something different. Grown, matured, calmed down, a steady beat under it all. So much part of who you are that it does not need that constant stating anymore. A silent stream that flows through your life, vitalizing everything without constantly needing to let its presence known.
A movement catches the corner of your eye..you look up..to find him on his hands and knees mopping the floor, because he knows you like the floors clean at the end of the day. And you fall in love all over again. With the same person. Just a little deeper. Just a little bit more.